Life is so crazy these days. I feel like I'm learning new things about Jesus all the time and I don't always believe that I'm open to really seeing His character and the things he has for me. I mean, I say I want to see God work in my life but when it comes down to it, I don't like change.
For example, this week I'm babysitting and 8 and 9 year old. I'm not saying this to solicit my new trade. I actually think that I'm not that good at it. At the core, I'm a very selfish person that likes things my way. Now I'm am being called to be selfless and not have my priorities or my expectations met. Don't get me wrong, I love the kids and it's good for me to experience what so many people are doing around me. I just didn't think I would be seeing my nasty sin as much as I am.
Needless to say, I'm still raising support. And it has it's ups and downs. I don't doubt the call but am weary in the process. Thanks for praying for me.
